A Balancing Act

I am SO tired! Since yesterday, I have felt like I could just fall on my face. Maddi’s been home, sick for a couple of days and I started to think that I might be getting sick, as well. But as the day’s worn on, I think that the explanation is that Clay is home. I mean that while he’s gone, I just stay in, “GO” mode and know that I have to get everything done and keep it all running and that when he gets home, I instinctively know that I have my partner here to fall back on and my body just shuts down. I feel bad for him, because then he ends up getting the worn-down, “I need to be taken-care-of”, me, instead of the “I can do it all and keep a smile on my face while doing it”, me.

I have found that no matter the amount of time that he is gone, there’s always a transition period when he comes back. I have to step back a little and let him jump in to be in charge and have his say on matters and co-parent instead of being completely in charge. This is SO hard! Any of you reading this, that are a military spouse, undoubtedly know what I mean. It’s such a balancing act. I think I fell off of my tight-rope at least once today.

Well, wish me luck and say a little prayer that I am NOT getting sick. I need to be 100% for the arrival of the kids and for the holiday!

Good night~

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