I’ve heard this and felt this, many times. There have been several times that I thought I was ready to jot it all down and get it out. After-all, it’s a pretty good story; teen pregnancy/deciding to keep a baby I was encouraged to give up for adoption/being a working single-mom, going to school and solely supporting myself and my daughter/bad decision making/life-changing decision making/getting married to a man I hardly knew and spent almost no time with/moving away from a small town and my family and becoming a working mother of 2 and military spouse/becoming a stay-at-home mom/having 3 babies in 2 1/2 years/making several moves to different states while having babies/being SO dang poor/settling in San Diego/fighting for better for my kids/finding my voice/realizing I was fighting a losing battle in my marriage/deciding to leave my marriage/finding out that one of my kiddos (and probably at least one other before him) has Aspergers/leaving my beloved Pacific Beach as a homeless and unemployed single parent/finding a home/fighting for my kids/finding a home/relying on my support system/accepting love/finding my worth/finding work…
There are so many things in each of those topics that I’m not ready to talk about…may never be ready to talk about. Yet, there’s so much that I would like to share. There are so many lessons I’ve learned about overcoming fear and believing that there’s a plan larger than ourselves and that if we take each day for what it brings, we will make it into our successful futures. I’ve learned never to give up on what my gut, heart and mind tell me are right. I would like to be able to share some things with young mothers, but that can be done on it’s own.
I was encouraged to enter “My Story” for a magazine contest with a prize of $5000 attached to the winning story. I thought about it for a few hours, but ultimately decided that not only am I not yet ready, but I also don’t want my story to belong to someone else. When and if it’s time, it needs to be done in my own way and my own time. Though $5000 would be nice
Doing the Dance of the Children~